Thursday October 11

My Daily Devan....

Tuesday October 2nd

Early this morning, sleeping with S next to me the thought floated into my head that the older I get the more I understand that I really just want my family to happy, healthy and safe.

And then I realized, I was actually asking for it all.

September 30: Weekend

Specifics and details (the who's, when's and where's) vary but there are a few common elements to most of our weekends.

They include: red wine and some cooking.

Roasted beet, roasted squash with spinach salad

The ROM, the park, and lots of newspapers.

The boys at the ROM & the 3D Dino puzzle we struggled with

Often baked goods come into play and then when icing ends up everywhere and no one eats anything else I make the usual vow that this is the last time I'm doing this.

For the record, its actually no one's birthday - but we just like candles, because fire and sugar together are where its at.

September 27: Joy

Yesterday at yoga, the theme of the class was joy.

I like a yoga class with a theme.

I'm not quite sure how joy differs from happiness or being cheerful - but my guess it would be that it's less fleeting...a more permanent state...

In the interim, I'll try and focus on the fleeting moments.

Summer - at the Sarnia House 

September 25: Quotes

After the worries of the past weekend, these words have new meaning for me.

"The secret of a full life is to live and relate to others as if they might not be there tomorrow, and as if you might not be."

Thank you to Brain Pickings  for bringing this quote to my attention.

Timely and true.

A rainbow on Yonge Street During A Weekend Walk With Mom & Devan

One Month Later

In things that got missed, Devan Sarkar joined our family a month ago today.

He was almost three weeks early (which threw all my book deadlines and organizing plans into disarray) but we had one delicious week of just three of together (the other two went to "Nonny Camp") for the week.

 Even though it was my third baby it was the first time I had been able to just be alone with new born and do things with and for him with R.  And it was wonderful.

Devan - 1 week 

I also can't believe its been a month already.

Dev Dev - 1 Month

Catching Up: A Year and Some Months Later

I'm no longer 35 and I suppose my birthday experiment was a fail since I stopped blogging.

Except that I thought alot about the blog. Primarily I thought about all the pictures that were just on my iphone or R's blackberry that might get lost.  And I thought about how we have no family albums.  And I thought about how I am doing nothing to capture our family life and yet someday I know I will regret it.

And I realized I wanted to come to this space.  Not to build an audience or to generate ad revenue which I removed but for me, since without the public aspect, I go back to old problem about journaling about my own issues or to dos.

I also realized that I felt pressured to take on some kind "voice" for the blog that wasn't actually me and it sort of constrained me.

But how do you catch up on a year that included: a family cruise to Belize, taking the boys to India, a birthday party with 24 animals, selling my book, having another baby, plus the usual camp, school, and day to day craziness.

 Randomly I guess.